Waiting

I am probably one of the most impatient people on the planet earth. If I didn't know how to fall asleep in cars or occasionally exercise self restraint I would be the little kid in the car constantly asking, " are we there yet? are we there yet?!"

So here I sit waiting patiently, but not really. I will check my phone every five seconds to see if I have a missed called or text message, even though my phone has not left my side in the last three hours since we last spoke. What is soon? What does that word even mean? I am unsure, but it feels like frickin forever on this side of things.

As I sit here, trying to distract myself by writing this blog post I begin to set myself up for disappointment. This seems to be a habit of mine. As I grow older I have begun to realize that I almost always expect at this point to be let down. Yes, he said soon, but soon could mean tomorrow by his definition. It would not be the first time there was a miscommunication of this sort.

Soon, what is the definition? Within short period of time; promptly or quickly. Does nearly three hours qualify as soon? Maybe in the scheme of life it is a short period of time. In that time span I could have watched two disney movies, or gone to the gym, or finished half my homework by three hour definition of soon. This sure does feel like a long time.

My phone is still sitting in front of me with a black screen. Phone, will he call soon? Phone, will he call soon?